Just off the night-shift and back this afternoon before a few days free.
The Magnolia tree is now in stunning full bloom and - right on cue - the August winds howl. Not a green leaf in sight yet the Magnolia is glorious, heavily laden and sheds delicate petals onto the earth below. The flower beds are now comfortably deep with fresh soil, seedlings, mulch and water and - yippee - a heavy shower of rain arrives to validate my effort.
Bliss. I take it where I can.
‘What do you hate not doing’ is the question posed by Derek Sivers and, as usual, the responses are varied and slanted towards the positive and the constructive. It’s a good site with a large community.
It’s an odd way of phrasing the question and I have a hard time grappling with the ‘hate’ part of the question.
I get angry - sometimes with an alarming if brief rise of pure volcanic fury - over the fact that I can do nothing ‘much’ about the state of the world but be constructive within my limited world but that’s a bit tangential to the question.
I don’t spring out of bed to greet the day with joy and enthusiasm.... well... sometimes I do.... but I’m not very motivated to jump on a bike.
Sooo .... I guess I hate not doing....... chuckle chuckle... ‘enough.’
And that ‘enough’ - being more serious - includes being slack about spending the length of time it takes for a kettle to boil, doing six rounds of ‘Salute to the sun’ every day when I KNOW that I get - after ten days or so - a quantum leap in centered energy and yet I can disregard this easy benefit in favour of coffee and a cigarette.
That ‘enough’ includes developing more discipline in terms of practising and playing on a much more regular basis.
It’s a question.
I’m very glad I have - and maybe am - a garden. The questions are similar if we’re talking about what we hate not doing.
Isn’t it about being in tune with the times, the cycles of growth and decay and the connection within our minds that makes sense of this and then allows us to acquiesce and attempt to align ourselves within this process?
I haven’t the faintest idea of what that means.
So .... mostly I hate not doing what the time requires.