david griffith - saucepanbach

“Good luck on your journey.” says a smiling nurse and it’s slightly jarring to hear such a phrase at a cancer clinic but receiving a cancer diagnosis does indeed mean that a journey is beginning, is already underway.

Late last year early-stage lung cancer was diagnosed, not too serious and something that keyhole surgery would fix. More serious was the Oesophagus cancer also revealed.

At the age I am, I had the lung cancer operation and was back on my feet within a month, somewhat depleted but on the mend.

Chemotherapy and a major operation for the Oesophagus made little sense to me. Bluntly put, and at my age, a year or two of a remaining quality of life is far preferable to the uncertainties of surgery. I may well have felt differently had I been fifty but I’m not.

A short time after coming to that decision a neighbour gave me information about two repurposed drugs which, anecdotally, indicate positive results with the treatment of cancer.

Fenbendazole and Ivermectin are repurposed veterinary drugs used primarily as deworming treatment for animals and it’s within that context that a positive effect on cancer was noted.

The professor at the cancer clinic understands why I choose not to go through with the Oesophagus surgery but thinks the treatment I’m taking, which is a mixture of those drugs, is a fad. He also appreciates that, as there’s no obvious harm thus far revealed in their use apart from a slight nausea then a “What have I got to lose?” attitude prevails.

I’m about six months into my treatment with two CT scans taken months apart and which reveal no growth. 

There’s no obvious dosage protocol with these drugs but I’m now a few weeks into what I believe is the correct dose for my weight.

Another CT scan is due next January at which time perhaps something positive is revealed.

As I’m not taking any other medication, I’m a ‘guinea pig’ of sorts where the cancer clinic can find use for my regime within a data base.

I’m only writing this because so many with cancer have a bleak prospect as their companion on such a journey. It’s as well to investigate medical alternatives.

As for my own eventual demise and for want of a better word, I’m pragmatic. 

Almost twenty five years ago I came home from an evening shift at a Group Home here in Australia and turned on the news just after the first plane hit one of the twin towers.

The news channels of the world were facing the towers as the second plane hit and it became apparent that this was no dreadful accident.

I watched, throughout the night and into the next day as the towers collapsed into their own footprint and Building 7 collapsed in free fall – not hit by a plane, not so close to the twin towers to be directly affected but collapsed anyway. A forty seven story building destroyed, so we were told, by office fires. The news channels already had a prepared script and told us that Building 7 had collapsed when the view from the news rooms showed otherwise.

Within days the rubble was cleared and sent to China. A crime scene of great magnitude was removed before forensic science could do its job.

“… but let’s not entertain conspiracy theories.” said George W Bush who was almost certainly not included amongst the conspirators, being too stupid to be trusted with such knowledge. Not so for Rumsfeld and Cheney nor for the bit part actors such as Larry Silverstein or Rudolf Guiliani.

The list of inconsistencies surrounding 9/11 is so large as to indicate that ‘terrorists’ of the bearded Arab type were only ‘fall guys’, patsies – useful idiots.

An FBI agent finds a passport belonging to a terrorist which miraculously flutters down amid that complete destruction – really?

The coroner at Shanksville where a plane crashed but left such little in the way of debris as to leave the coroner bewildered as to why he’d been called at all – no bodies.

I’d thought twenty five years ago that the real culprits would be arrested within days but not so – too much for most to absorb and now it’s almost ancient history but the ramifications continue into the present day.

As to why such an event was planned within the U.S. is open to question but the Project for a New American Century required a galvanising of American public opinion in order to carry out its aims which included the destruction of Libya, Iraq, Syria, Lebanon, Sudan, Somalia and, of course, Iran– endless wars carried out to cement America’s pre-eminent position in the world.

The 9/11 Truth movement continues its efforts to bring the real truth to the world notwithstanding the many ‘documentaries’ purporting to show that, indeed, it was bearded terrorists who managed this huge operation.

Two planes ... three towers 
Can’t get those images from out my head 
Two planes ... three towers 
A few thousand here then millions dead 

I looked at it once and it wouldn’t go away 
I looked at it twice and it was gone within days 
Is it only the architects who question the rubble 
where the towers used to be? 

..... all fall down, free fall down ..... impossible 


Two wars .... no cause 
No bringing of freedom to a soul 
Not one .... just blood 
and the tears and the oil and the gold 

I looked at it hard and it wouldn’t go away 
I looked hard again and it was gone within days 
Is it only engineers who question the rubble 
where the towers used to be? 

..... all fall down, free fall down ..... impossible 


Two planes ... three towers 
A conjurer’s trick to deceive 
Who gains? .... another tale 
It’s only physics here revealed 

..... all fall down, free fall down ..... impossible

‘Social cohesion’ is what our Prime Minister asks for, almost a plea as well it might be considering that within my lifetime, I’ve yet to see ‘social cohesion’ existing at all – except as wishful thinking.

To not discuss politics or religion at the dinner table was considered both sensible and polite decades ago and it still holds true for many perhaps because there’s very little discussion generally about ‘things that matter.’

We are presented with talking points, ideas and then policies at a governmental level and, individually, we choose to accept them or not – after examining the sense, meaning and implication of these ideas.

Well – that’s the ideal but it doesn’t much happen.

There are still otherwise intelligent people who hold that the Earth is flat notwithstanding Galileo’s telescope and the discovery of the rings of Saturn. The idea that every astronomer since 1610 has colluded in a conspiracy to prove that the Earth is not flat doesn’t stand scrutiny and is discarded by all but the True Believers – and belief is the impoverished distant relative of knowledge.

The same holds true for the idea that one can be born into the wrong body and that by surgery and drugs a man can become a woman or vice versa. 

The gay/lesbian community has been hijacked by the transgender grouping and an acceptance that one really can transition from male to female.

Sorry I am for the anguish trans people must feel but wishful thinking doesn’t change reality and inclusion – as a social concept – does not include propping up delusion.

Why the call for ‘Social cohesion’ unless there’s a lack of it. Muzzling free speech is the band-aid solution which works well on a scratch but is of no use for the deeply wounded.

The slaughter goes on in Gaza and the West Bank while Australian politicians are more concerned about our local Jewish population and their feelings of discomfort when facing abuse.

Monumental hypocrisy – polite diplomacy doesn’t work with the rabid dogs who rule in Israel.

Meanwhile flowers bloom, the sun shines and life goes on until it doesn’t.

Gravity is the force which holds the Universe together – or so I was told. The Sun was made of fire until nuclear weapons gave us an alternative, widely accepted alternative.

Strange it is that within a world used to the idea of Climate Change, all somehow our fault, something to do with Global Warming and with too much Carbon in the atmosphere and a huge societal push towards all things electric and renewable, that the idea that the Universe itself is electric somehow escapes public attention.

This is acceptable to a citizen for whom such ideas don’t impact daily life but within the Climate movement where expertise gets touted and drives agendas with huge impact upon society – this is disgraceful.

Disgraceful? The Earth has a magnetic field which is weakening. The magnetic poles are on the move. These are facts, not in dispute, but don’t make the mainstream news outlets nor do the various Green parties make mention of this.

Worth noting that it’s electric currents which create magnetic fields so gravity is not the only force at work yet an ‘Electric Universe’ is not the prevailing view within Cosmology.

The evidence is there, witness the Carrington event:

“The Carrington Event was the most intense geomagnetic storm in recorded history, peaking on 1–2 September 1859 during solar cycle 10. It created strong auroral displays that were reported globally and caused sparking and even fires in telegraph stations. The geomagnetic storm was most likely the result of a coronal mass ejection from the Sun colliding with Earth's magnetosphere. The geomagnetic storm was associated with a very bright solar flare on 1 September 1859” – Wikipedia.

The reason we see auroras more frequently at lower latitudes is due to the weakening of Earth’s magnetic field which then allows the plasma contained within a coronal mass ejection to permeate the atmosphere.

Apart from those who hold to the idea that this world was literally created within a week, the majority of those in the West probably accept a backdrop of world history, of aeons of time, of a very slow evolution with millions of years in which not much happened.

It’s a cosy idea named Uniformitarianism. It suggests that what we see in front of us, in a solar system sense, is the way it’s always been and it’s quietly embedded in our understanding of reality just as is the idea that gravity is the prevailing force in the Universe.

It’s not what the evidence contains.

Catastrophism is the alternative idea, not cosy at all, which suggests that the Earth is subject to repeated cycles of change, perhaps every ten to twelve thousand years.

Velikovsky’s remarkable book ‘Worlds in Collision’ set me off on a wondrous journey where evidence was the driving force.

The planet is experiencing extremes of weather very little of which is due to you or I.

‘Net Zero’ is beggaring societies. It’s an ideological position which couldn’t be maintained if the evidence were to be squarely faced.

Our reliance upon electricity is such that if the Sun were to belch and deliver another Carrington event our electric systems would fry.

It’s not the most cheerful of subjects. A video worth watching if you’ve the time and interest.

Exquisite patterns cut into the fields of England, made by some intelligence other than human, perhaps, to draw our collective consciousness away from the dreary, predictable political patterns we’re used to living with. Crop circles have not decreased over the years and, like so much in life of importance, are ignored.

A tofu dreg President, a cardboard cut-out of a man, in the not so United States, a belt and road initiative by the Chinese which could have resulted in positive and substantial benefits to all but, due to the conspicuous corruption with which the Chinese are sadly accustomed, has failed as is evident in the collapsed tofu dreg housing built by Chinese companies in Venezuela.

Patterns of human behaviour in the political world, dubious at best, despicable in reality.

Israel, the slaughter ongoing, the spoken words – ‘You, Palestinians, are subhuman, you count for nothing.’

There’s the problem. How does any human being devolve to such a spiritually debased state that his neighbour is believed to be sub-human. That can’t be dressed up with piety and all the rabbis in the world can’t make it so.

‘Original sin’, as a concept, was part of my childhood Roman Catholic upbringing. A twisted idea if the truth lies closer to the sense that ‘human nature’, the cauldron from which we all drink, gives the capacity of the heights and depths, of all manner of good and evil, and the knowledge of the difference, – and that we all have that capacity and how would you know unless you’d been tested. 

I know a fall from grace, more than once, it’s part of being a human being.

My interests are varied, who wrote Shakespeare? There’s a detective story worth following. 

Creatures known as Yowie in Australia, Bigfoot and Sasquatch elsewhere and there’s a commonality in their nature.

A short, beautiful video about Crop Circles, which appear to be swirled into place rather than cut, and a fascinating video with a retired Navaho Ranger detailing, without sensationalism, his experience of Bigfoot.

I live in a National Park where the towns and villages are strung out like necklace along the highway. To either side of the highway and within a relatively small distance lies ‘the Bush’ – typical Australian understatement – vast forests in which such creatures as Yowies exist and get reported.

Not of interest generally but, much like UFO encounters, revealed as great interest to those who’ve had such experience.

Losing face, saving face?  As an older man, tending a garden, living a relatively simple life, I have the time, regardless of health issues, to muse and ponder, educate perhaps enlighten myself.

It’s a changing landscape, internal, external.

Being able to say ‘Sorry’, to know exactly what the issue is and where the fault is mine, to make amends as best I can, is a freedom.

How can I know myself without the rigorous honesty that political leaders can ill afford.

How difficult then, as a government rather than as a human being, to admit a mistake, a ‘Sorry, we were wrong.’ Hmm – never hear it. Would be refreshing rather than be seen as a sign of weakness.

I’m in the Autumn of my life, approaching Winter. The ailments of an older age manifest and will not get better. 

There’s much to still interest me and when it comes to an ‘older age’ there’s a larger history which beckons – the hidden history of Britain, the country in which my childhood unfolded.

No doubt every country has a history untold or hidden. This matters.

I take my news from many sources, democrat or republican, labour or liberal, none of these distinctions hold meaning. The t.v. news I’ll watch briefly to see what today’s narrative is and where the focus is being pushed.

There is no country that I can think of where life is sweet. Already, in Australia as elsewhere, life is tough to grim for many – no need to mention it if not for a defective human, being in charge of what was, perhaps, a great nation and where the congress is unable to oust this travesty of a leader.

China appears to be in a state of collapse yet it’s talked about as a great power – it still is in some sense but not so when it comes to the needs of its own people. We don’t hear about it in the mainstream press, the diminished population, the closed factories, the ‘tofu dreg’ construction, the unpaid wages – not unpaid for weeks but for months.

And yet China has the wherewithal to put a lander on the moon but is a failing police state, desperately trying to save face and cling to power, back here on Earth. 

There’s something wonderful about seeing pennants fluttering in the breeze, flags waving in the sun, standards being proudly flown and it all serves to raise spirits and for this reason false flags are foul.

That Trump is in danger of being shot yet again stinks of a staged event, a false flag. The clearest example of a false flag attack is the Israeli attack on the U.S.S.Liberty.

Wikipedia says:

“The USS Liberty incident was an attack on a United States Navy technical research ship, USS Liberty, by Israeli Air Force jet fighter aircraft and Israeli Navy motor torpedo boats, on 8 June 1967, during the Six-Day War. The attack killed 34 crew members, wounded 171 crew members, and severely damaged the ship. Both the Israeli and United States governments conducted inquiries and issued reports that concluded the attack was a mistake due to Israeli confusion about the ship's identity.”

Oh – a sincere mistake? Not so – there was no confusion. Lyndon Johnson was President at the time and refused to jeopardise the American relationship with Israel and would rather have had it that the survivors perished but, truth be told, it’s a well-documented false flag.

But ‘nothing to see here.’

So why wouldn’t trust be broken, why wouldn’t the standards be lowered, flags at half-mast, if not to acknowledge and mourn the present state of world affairs.

Sun shines on good and evil alike, a lovely, still, Autumn day and time to work and enjoy a garden which I’ve now done.

There are pyramids in China, I’ve seen them on google earth and wonder why trees are planted on the sides if not to conceal what isn’t advertised anyway. I don’t imagine that the government there is much concerned with respect for ancestors.

Burial plots in desirable places are – apparently – the new booming real estate market in China. Having made living itself a catastrophe, the cost of death becomes an additional burden.

Yet, I’m told there maybe minor changes needed but ‘All is well in China.’ 

I don’t know that life is much better or will continue to be so for the rest of the world. 

Theatre of the absurd.